15

As of today, Ryan and I have been dating for 15 months! A year and 3 months. how fun is that? :) Aww i love it! I really enjoy being around my handsome man! Today he was very very sweet! Gave me some flowers and took me out to eat :) isn't he lovely? We went to Taco Bell tonight, i love that place! The reason for that is because that is where I began to fall in love with him! I know, it sounds strange lol! When we were getting to know each other, Ryan picked me up for institute and after the tute, we stopped by Taco Bell. We talked for a loooong time! He asked me about my family, friends, my likes, my dislikes...everything! And it felt like I talked sooo much and he listened! I loooved that! When he dropped me off at home, I said "I'm sorry for talking so much" and he said "Steph, look at me, you can never talk too much, because I enjoy listening to you" It melted my heart! SO! yes..today was lovely! I love him more and more each day, and every day with him seems to be so special in my heart! I love being around his family, I love being around him, I love loving him! He's amazing and I adore him with all my heart! This might sound lame...but when Holly came, I gave Austin a few gifts, and when she was opening them she said "Say thank you Aunty Steph" and it made me feel warm and fuzzy inside! lol I know it's not a big deal, but i loved it :) we had a lot of fun last weekend! I'll post some pics soon! I'm gunna get going! By the way, nancy is still prego...the baby is coming soon! sometime this week! yay! I'll update!

Love,
Steph

"Te Quiero Mucho"

The title of this blog translates to "I adore/love you very much".

In my family, we have the habit of ALWAYS telling each other that we love each other and giving each other kisses on the cheek. I grew up with my mom and little sister, so we were more like friends. We talk about everything, laugh about everything and argue...about almost everything lol. But one thing that we ALWAYS do, is show love for one another. I never realized this wasn't very common in other families, until recently. I'm so grateful that I can call or text my mom randomly saying "te quiero mucho" and I'll get "yo a ti" [i love you too] as a response. She has never questioned why I say it randomly..because we're so used to it!!! I love it! I hope that in the future, I can raise a family with the same amount of freedom to express love. Some friends tell me that if they tell their mom/dad/sibling that they love them, the recipient of the love automatically asks "ok...what do you want?" or "is anything wrong"...etc. That has never happened to me! lol and im soooo happy about that! I love my family a ton! And although some believe that if you say "love" too much, it looses its significance, I beg to differ. The more its used, the more important it becomes :) The less you use it....it gains a new meaning. I don't know if that makes sense...but it makes PERFECT sense to me. lol

anyways,
Los quiero mucho :)

-Steph

Lyrics

This is one of my FAVORITE songs of all time!  I love it because it expresses exactly how I want to be loved. I'm superrrr romantic! and sometimes, I just want to be loved. I don't wanna be flattered, I don't wanna be admired, I don't want to be showered with gifts, I don't wanna be the center of attention,  I just want to be loved.

I LOVE the lyrics!
It's by Buju Banton :)

I Wanna be loved
Not for who you think I am
Nor what you want me to be
Could you love me for me?
Real love, with no strings attached
I wanna give you me heart
Don't want to take it back
This is my chat-cho

Been searching for a long long time
For that oh-so-true love
To comfort this heart of mine
No pretense stop wasting my time
A virtuous woman is really hard to find
I'm telling you lady
I'm only human, not looking for impossibility
Just a genuine woman with sincerity
Someone who is always near to hold me
Show me you care, up front and boldly
Don't shun my feelings, all the positive meanings
Love me morning, noon all seasons

[Chorus]

Well every moe have it's stick in a bush
What happen to me...she must be somewhere out there
Now where could she be?
Caught up passionately in a love rhapsody
I'm like waiting on some honey
But there ain't no queen bee
Everybody's laughing
Some say I'm silly
No infatuation, no love fantasy
Woman you lead my life on a string
I can't tale the on and off thing
I'm oh so lonely inside so I sing

[Chorus]

I would spend my nights at home
But if it means contention
I'd rather be alone
Tell the service man cut the phones
Lock all communication
If there's no light within my day
I'd rather stay in isolation
For that special someone a lifetime I'll wait
I know that I'll be okay
Cross my heart, every day I live I pray
And I know she'll come my way
Night and day for this woman I pray

[Chorus]

Oh Joy

I'm at work and I'm soooo sleepy!!!!! I want to go home and take a nap! I'm bored out of my mind! NO ONE is here!!!!!

Love,
Steph

Ps: I <3 Ry

:)

This weekend was SO busy!!! Let's begin...
On Friday:

• I went with Gaby to LA at about 10AM to pick up the flowers for her wedding.
• Stopped by Temple City to pick up her dress.
• Got to the church building to drop off the flowers.
• Went to her house to pick up the decorations for the reception
• Went back to the building to start decorating...
• Decorated until 6PM [we left early..]
• Picked up some Burger King
• Went to Ry's house because he had band practice.
• Practiced untl 10
• Created the playlists for the wedding.
• Got home at 2AM

Saturday

• Went to the temple at 9:15
• Took pics from 10:30-12
• Drove home to pick up equiptment at 2
• Went to the Ring Ceremony at 3
• Went to Reception at 5
• Helped with the clean up
• Met up with Becca, Mahinor and Sean & went to The Hat
• Came home at 12
• Prepared handouts for my class
• Sleeeeeep

Sunday

• Woke up and read over my class
• Went to church
• Taught class
• Came home and took a nap
• Went to Ry's house
• Came home
• Sleeeep

SO! that was my weekend! Surprisingly....I didn't get into my bitter mode haha. I think I just don't care anymore... I'm practicing patience, which is a good thing! One day at a time!
The reception was really nice! Ry did a grrreat job at DJ-ing! Everyone danced! I only danced one song... Ry was busy. Maybe next time. Well, I'm super tired....good night!!

Steph

Thursday Night Serenades

My Ry is back!!!! I'm so happy!! I missed him :) I think he missed me too! but anyways...
  On weekdays, Ry and I don't go out, we usually have class and we go home..except Wednesdays, we go to the Tute. Anyways, tonight we went to class and after that we went to a pupuseria. I had a lot of fun with Ry! He is always joking around! And speaking of joking...a while back, he was going through a phase where he would pretend to propose, at random times! When he did this, I would just walk away lol. And I have this theory that every time a guy proposes, the girl will automatically put both of her hands over her mouth as soon as he gets on his knee. lol...and I've always said "I am NOT gunna do that" so today we made a bet. If I do that, I have to do his laundry for 2 weeks...and if I don't, he'll have to do mine for 2 weeks. lol. On our way home we were listening to Music and singing along :) Ry serenaded me with "Can't take my eyes off of you" and "Just Like Heaven". He's funny :)

Soooo that was that. I love random nights with him. Last night we danced in his garage! lol I'm teaching him how to dance to latin music, he's doing sooo GREAT! He always makes me smile! We have such a busy weekend ahead of us...! But, we'll get to relax on Sunday so I'm excited about that! Well, Ill post pics soon!

<3 Steph

Exhale

          You know that feeling...when you've been holding your breath for a long time? And you feel the pressure in your lungs, you feel like you actually NEED Oxygen, and you know that as soon as you exhale...that next inhale is going to feel like such a relief! Well..last night I exhaled and inhaled and it felt great! :) I had a lot of things on my mind and I let go of them and I'm moving forward! I feel like a brand new person! I'm so gateful for having such an Amazing Man in my life. He listens to me and he knows how to make me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world! I am absolutely in love with this Wonderful Man.
         When I was growing, I didn't have the best childhood...I experienced a lot of horrible situations at home. My dad was a wonderful father, but not the best husband. So I witnessed a lot of domestic abuse...physical and emotional. And I always wondered why all those things happened to me if I hadn't done anything bad to deserve that..and I always hoped to have a happier life as an adult. My mom always told me "I hope you are blessed with a wonderful husband" and I always hoped for the same thing. But now that I've been blessed with such an amazing boyfriend...I know that he will be the wonderful husband I always hoped for. I know that he was meant to be a blessing in my life. I know that everything in our lives happened for a reason...and the outcome of all those things led to US. The bond that we have is so sweet. It's not only a physical attraction, but also a spiritual one. I can honestly say he completes me. I am soo deeply in love with this Man. He's on his way home right now and I can't express how excited I am to see him. The hours seem to be 10 times longer than usual...so I'll try to keep busy at work :)

Love,
Stephanie Arcos