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This weekend was SO busy!!! Let's begin...
On Friday:

• I went with Gaby to LA at about 10AM to pick up the flowers for her wedding.
• Stopped by Temple City to pick up her dress.
• Got to the church building to drop off the flowers.
• Went to her house to pick up the decorations for the reception
• Went back to the building to start decorating...
• Decorated until 6PM [we left early..]
• Picked up some Burger King
• Went to Ry's house because he had band practice.
• Practiced untl 10
• Created the playlists for the wedding.
• Got home at 2AM

Saturday

• Went to the temple at 9:15
• Took pics from 10:30-12
• Drove home to pick up equiptment at 2
• Went to the Ring Ceremony at 3
• Went to Reception at 5
• Helped with the clean up
• Met up with Becca, Mahinor and Sean & went to The Hat
• Came home at 12
• Prepared handouts for my class
• Sleeeeeep

Sunday

• Woke up and read over my class
• Went to church
• Taught class
• Came home and took a nap
• Went to Ry's house
• Came home
• Sleeeep

SO! that was my weekend! Surprisingly....I didn't get into my bitter mode haha. I think I just don't care anymore... I'm practicing patience, which is a good thing! One day at a time!
The reception was really nice! Ry did a grrreat job at DJ-ing! Everyone danced! I only danced one song... Ry was busy. Maybe next time. Well, I'm super tired....good night!!

Steph

Thursday Night Serenades

My Ry is back!!!! I'm so happy!! I missed him :) I think he missed me too! but anyways...
  On weekdays, Ry and I don't go out, we usually have class and we go home..except Wednesdays, we go to the Tute. Anyways, tonight we went to class and after that we went to a pupuseria. I had a lot of fun with Ry! He is always joking around! And speaking of joking...a while back, he was going through a phase where he would pretend to propose, at random times! When he did this, I would just walk away lol. And I have this theory that every time a guy proposes, the girl will automatically put both of her hands over her mouth as soon as he gets on his knee. lol...and I've always said "I am NOT gunna do that" so today we made a bet. If I do that, I have to do his laundry for 2 weeks...and if I don't, he'll have to do mine for 2 weeks. lol. On our way home we were listening to Music and singing along :) Ry serenaded me with "Can't take my eyes off of you" and "Just Like Heaven". He's funny :)

Soooo that was that. I love random nights with him. Last night we danced in his garage! lol I'm teaching him how to dance to latin music, he's doing sooo GREAT! He always makes me smile! We have such a busy weekend ahead of us...! But, we'll get to relax on Sunday so I'm excited about that! Well, Ill post pics soon!

<3 Steph

Exhale

          You know that feeling...when you've been holding your breath for a long time? And you feel the pressure in your lungs, you feel like you actually NEED Oxygen, and you know that as soon as you exhale...that next inhale is going to feel like such a relief! Well..last night I exhaled and inhaled and it felt great! :) I had a lot of things on my mind and I let go of them and I'm moving forward! I feel like a brand new person! I'm so gateful for having such an Amazing Man in my life. He listens to me and he knows how to make me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world! I am absolutely in love with this Wonderful Man.
         When I was growing, I didn't have the best childhood...I experienced a lot of horrible situations at home. My dad was a wonderful father, but not the best husband. So I witnessed a lot of domestic abuse...physical and emotional. And I always wondered why all those things happened to me if I hadn't done anything bad to deserve that..and I always hoped to have a happier life as an adult. My mom always told me "I hope you are blessed with a wonderful husband" and I always hoped for the same thing. But now that I've been blessed with such an amazing boyfriend...I know that he will be the wonderful husband I always hoped for. I know that he was meant to be a blessing in my life. I know that everything in our lives happened for a reason...and the outcome of all those things led to US. The bond that we have is so sweet. It's not only a physical attraction, but also a spiritual one. I can honestly say he completes me. I am soo deeply in love with this Man. He's on his way home right now and I can't express how excited I am to see him. The hours seem to be 10 times longer than usual...so I'll try to keep busy at work :)

Love,
Stephanie Arcos

Titles

girl·friend

 /ˈgɜrlˌfrɛnd/ Show Spelled[gurl-frend]

–noun

1.

a frequent or favorite female companion; sweetheart.

2.

a female friend. 

boy·friend

 /ˈbɔɪˌfrɛnd/ Show Spelled[boi-frend]

–noun

1.

a frequent or favorite male companion; beau.

2.

a male friend.

3.

a male lover. 

I know what a girlfriend is...but I think I'm at a point where I've been Ryan's girlfriend for soooo long that it feels like I'm more than that lol... and that's when things get confusing. I want to treat him like more than just a boyfriend, but what's in between boyfriend and husband? [with the exception of fiance...because that's basically a husband]  And then there's those awkward family picture moments...where the family is taking pictures and you know you're not a part of the family, but it feels like you are, so you're not sure if you should be in the picture, does that make sense? lol It's not too bad for me, since I'm always the one taking the pictures. lol But its still a strange situation. I tend to over analyze a lot of things, so I'm going to stop. lol I'll just continue being his "frequent or favorite female companion; sweetheart". I don't HAVE to know what he's up to ALL the time, so I'm going to back off and chill. Because the reality is I'm just his girlfriend. I have to stop getting upset at him for dumb things...I really do. It's my fault...I need to recognize my title and expect nothing more than what comes with it. 

Love, 

Steph  

Chocolate Covered Friday

Hello :)

It's a Friday night and I'm at home! Sounds like my single days...haha :) But it's all good! I enjoy staying home. I haven't stayed home on a Friday night in a LONG time! So today was a pretty relaxing day, I went to work from 9-1 [it wasn't too busy] then after work I went to try on the bridesmaid dress, but the lady wasn't there and didn't notify me that she would be gone sooo I drove over to her house for nothing! On my way home I had to buy some white chocolate so I went to Food4Less and after that I stopped by the Teriyaki Place that i Love, and I came home to have lunch with Oreo :) He likes chicken...so I shared lol. I watched some TV and ended up falling asleep..lol. Sooo I woke up and started working on the Chocolate covered pretzels for my sister's baby shower tomorrow. I made about 70 pretzels, really yummy :) I'm not a fan of chocolate so I didn't have any, but my mom said they were delicious! I also practiced making the tux strawberries and they actually turned out nice! Ill post a picture :) It's really blurry because I took it with my cell phone. SO! I finally finished everything and decided to come up to my room and watch a movie I rented. I had planned on making it a girls night with my mom and sister, but my sister took off to her bf's house to spend the night...while I was taking a nap. So..I'll be watching it alone :/ oh well.
As for My Ry...he seems to be having fun in Utah. He bought a Wii! amazing. lol he's not the type to spend money on video games... I haven't talked to him much today, we've only talked for like 30 minutes, and they were all 5 minute conversations :( But, at least I know he's having fun! I really miss him, but it's nice to spend some time apart so that we can appreciate the time we have together. SoOo yeah. That's my Friday! Tomorrow I'll be waking up early to make the chocolate covered strawberries for the baby shower and then I'll be watching Conference! My mom will be going to the shower, but I'm gunna stay home. In the evening I'll be hanging out with my friend Anneliese! yay :) She's been my friend since 1st grade! we live like a block away from each other. So I'm looking forward to that! I'll post pics soon!

-Steph

Christmas 2009

I was reading through my posts and I noticed I never posted anything about Christmas!!!!

So here's a small summary!

On Christmas Eve, I went over to Ryan's house and had dinner with his family. Almost everyone was there! :) Carla, Meagan, Jared, Eric, Angie and their two little girls :) We had some delicious sandwiches! They were kind of like philly cheese steak style! We also had nachos and other snacks! After dinner we played some games, sang some carols and exchanged gifts. It was really fun! Since I wasn't in the secret santa exchange...I didn't expect to get anything, but i did! lol Carla gave me this really cute picture holder and a ornament in the shape of an "S" I loved it! :) And Lisa gave me a set of lotions [Mango Scent]. After we were done with the gift opening, Some of us decided to play hand and foot. It was overall a great gathering! After Ryan's family left, we went over to my house to open gifts at midnight with my family. We've always opened gifts at midnight...lol its a tradition! So we opened our gifts! Ry gave me a gorgeous [PinK] Guess purse and a much needed printer! I was soo happy! My mom and sister gave me a lot of clothes! I got my mom a purse that she had been wanting for the longest time! And my sister, gift cards and a mini water cooler lol. My Ry got...Vans, a hoodie, and a comforter set lol [he needed it].

The next morning, we went over to Ry's house to open gifts with his family. His grandparents came over and it was really fun :) We had enchiladas for lunch, which are my FAVORITE! After lunch we started opening gifts, there were a lot of gifts! Ryan and his Mom had been putting together a DVD for his grandparents with a slide show of their lives together..it was very touching :) Ry's grandma cried because she was so happy. It was a really neat experience! Ill post some pictures soon! The rest of the day was just relaxing, we played games, watched Elf..and just relaxed :) Overall Great Christmas!

-Steph

2010

I just realized I haven't written anything this year!!!! I've been keeping up with my personal journal, but not on here! Anyways, lets get started!

Family:
They are doing pretty good, well no...I lie. lol They actually aren't doing so well...
My mom and sister are inactive, and my 16 yr old sister is pregnant and due in May. It's been a bit of a roller coaster for us :( I'm not very good at sharing my feelings. I'm not good at ALL! And I know that's bad... but its just really really difficult to just talk about it. When we first found out that she was pregnant was back in January...I came home from school and I had picked up the mail on the way in. When I got to the kitchen, I saw a letter for my sister that came from a clinic,and i got worried and opened it...and that's how we found out. Not a very good way to find out at all..but I guess there wouldn't be a good way to find out. My mom started crying and started blaming herself...etc. I didn't know what to say. I was literally speechless! And I knew that if I were to have said something, it would be something mean, so I kept my mouth shut. I will just support her and try to be there when she needs me :) So anyway, things were a bit crazy, but right now they are going okay... They still don't go to church, but I continue going! It's a little sad to sit by myself, but as long as I am nourishing my spirit, everything will be fine! So, that's that.

School and Work:
Both are going pretty good. My history class is SUPER boring!!! But I've gotten good grades on the quizzes, so I'm not too worried! The writing assignments are a bit intense :( So I am not looking forward to them.. Work is busy...I'm working 5 days a week now...30 hours. I love the paycheck :) I've been saving my money, and im proud of myself!

Ryan:
He is doing fantastic! We celebrated our 1 year anniversary on February 5th! It's amazing how fast time flies! I still remember his black emo hair lol! Goood times! We're doing great, people ask us about marriage ALL the time! It gets annoying at times and it makes it a bit awkward, because as a girl... I never know what to say when they ask "When?". Little do they know...that we're on the SAME boat! lol i have NO idea when Ry is going to "pop the question"! It's a little frustrating at times and I get in a strange mood every time we go to weddings! I start saying things I don't mean...like "I'm tired of YSA activities..." lol and a bunch of other ridiculous nonsense. Ryan can tell RIGHT away...and he calms me down. But I think I have the right to feel a little frustrated, I'm a GIRL! We dream about our wedding day since we're 5! So, I try to understand why I feel the way I do, and just move on. Patience is a virtue. On some days I realize how young I am and I begin to think that it would be crazy if I got married! But then I look back on my life and think of ALL the events that presented themselves at an early part of my life. I grew up a little too fast. I just...I don't know. My brain is in a knot...literally lol. :) We've had our ups and downs, at some point I didn't feel as appreciated as I thought I should be...and I told him about it and we came up with ways that he can be a little more appreciative. So far, he's doing alright. I just wish things were like they were a year ago...when he couldn't go a day without seeing me, and he would show up at random times and throw stuff at my bedroom window just to give me a gatorade..lol Or even when he brought me some Sunflowers, out of the blue! But I guess that was the first stage...the "honeymoon" stage. We're obviously in a different stage of our relationship, and that's fine. I feel more connected with him. We're more in tune. I know when he's having a bad day, I know when he's mad, sad, frustrated, happy, excited...etc. And it goes both ways, He reads me like a book! At times its a little uncomfy for him to show affection in public..because we had different parents. My parents were very loving...but it didn't last too long, they got a divorce by the time I was 8. His parents don't show too much PDA..but they have such a sweet relationship that is going to last for eternity. So, I want to have a hybrid of the both...I LOVE to show him that I love him! I like to randomly hug him, kiss him, hold his hand, rub his cheek, etc.. But for him it's a little different. He isn't that creative with showing his love, but then again, he's a guy. Guys tend to be like that. But enough about that!
We've done some fun stuff this year! We went to a play, Visited Cafe Rio, Went to a HP dance, Ry had a bday party, Went to Victoria Gardens, went to Phoenix Restaurant, and a lot of other fun stuff! I think for now, I'll enjoy every minute with my Sweetheart! He makes me really really happy! I adore his family! Michelle is really kind and funny! We always pick on Ryan when we're together..lol! Lisa is sooo friendly and helpful! She always helps me with my chocolate dipping :) Mike is quiet, but once you get him to talk...he's funny, intelligent and very sweet! And Holly, I only got to meet her a few times, but she's hilarious and very friendly! :)

Me:
I'm doing okay. There are quite a few things on my mind...The other night I had a break down. It was terrible! My dad was killed in Mexico about 2 and a half years ago. He was shot in the back of his left ear and on his back. When my mom told me that he passed away, she just said he was in an "accident"...a couple of days later I googled his name and I found the newspaper article that explained how he was killed. And ever since then, I've had nightmares, and just horrible thoughts about him :( I didn't get to attend his funeral so I don't feel like I ever got closure.
After finding out that he was shot, I began to have this huge fear of guns. I start to freak out when I see one...and I don't know how to get over that fear! I probably need a psychologist. My bed is right next to my window and the other day I started picturing someone shooting at my window, so I got scared and slept on the floor. I don't think that's normal...I started crying and I felt so lonely! I prayed, called Ryan and we did a prayer together. He helped me calm down and I was finally able to sleep. It's really hard for me to talk/write about all this. I never really talked to anyone about my dad. I just locked myself in my room and cried for days! I think I need a blessing, that will help.

Well, its getting late and I'm really tired, Good night!

-Steph